FEAR - Undoing - Summary of Priya’s Kundalini Life Class

11/7/18

• What is AGENCY & How much do you have?
• Knowing where you stand; knowing you have a Say in what Happens to you; knowing you have some ability to shape your life; knowing what your Attaching to and Why? 
• What we hold on to; how we see; how we feel = Consciousness Experience 
• Events meant to be Experienced by Soul, by the Soul’s contract/destiny (“lessons” on Soul’s agenda to be experienced on Eath School). Soul Not impacted by Events. Ego is, but Soul remains untouched and pristine. Soul doesn’t care about right or wrong- Unattached. Surrendered state with no preference. 
• But sometimes the Body stores the Event / Energy. 
• Ego job is to Protect us from danger. Only wants “good” experiences. Tries to Protect from whole slew of “threats” like social anxiety, criticism, feelings, etc. that are Far from Saber-tooth tigers and puts us in a small comfort zone / boundaries of preferences and everything upsets us. Ego tells us to numb out with distractions to take us away from appropriately processing these Events / feelings and allowing the Energy to Move through instead of getting stuck and causing “DIS-ease.”
• Attachment is an extension of Self. When we attach to something we see it as a piece of us and protect it as such. 
• When we Attach or have a Preference, we LOSE OUR AGENCY. Whatever own us owns our Agency. 
• FEAR - Ego thinks Everything is unsafe / over-reacts because it can’t tell difference between an actual Saber toothed tiger (fear of death) and Road Rage in Traffic or a “what will people think of me” panic attack (fear of not belonging, rejection) or party planning worry. Modern day stress amounts to constant berrage of stress hormones, cortisol, and the Ego in constant high alert protection mode leading to many of modern day diseases. Fears are also registered internally and passed on through generations. War and trauma exist in our DNA that allows the Ego to continue to tap into this negative well of boundaries even if no longer rational.
• FREEDOM is opposite of Fear of Death
• INTROSPECTION- Agency begins with QUESTIONING the Ego. Awareness of subtle senses and control there of. Ego won’t like questions- like a mafia boss / bodyguard. Sick feeling, Ego will use Shame as a weapon!! 
• Because of our Fear of Rejection, which Attachments do we latch on to? Social setting: party, can’t sit without numbing with Alcohol and/or Food. ANY feelings rising cause us to run for TV, alcohol, food, video games, news, any intellectual distraction, shopping, clinging/neediness, or any other Unconscious response. 
• ASK EGO: WHAT/WHY?? Is it true?? What would happen if  (opposite of Ego preference) and I stayed in my own feelings? 
• Our IDENTITY is built up based on Ego’s preferences and protection. MASKS.  Make us feel Alone because we are so FAR from HOME (Soul). 
• TAKE BACK OUR AGENCY by QUESTIONING the EGO (edges God out according to Wayne Dyer). 
• First part of brain to develop is the Reptilian brain including functions for Sleep, eating, drink, excretion, Exactly what a NEWBORN baby can do. Subsequent layers developed Evolutionaryily the same as Infants’ development. Prefrontal cortex is last and finalized by about 25 years old. 
• Note issues with SLEEP point to Ego feeling endangered and keeping watch. 
• Talk to your mind - who is coming to get you? Is this Real or FAKE news. Release Fake news. “You are safe, you are ok, no Fear.” Repeating Mantra. 
• Be AWARE OF THOUGHTS - UNATTACHED 
• When Ego finally lets go, we feel exposed/vulnerable. Mourning/grief - empty - feel missing Ego (but before ego let’s go, doubles down, doesn’t like being questioned) 
• Letting go of Ego is like having to go through the Beast in the Cave. But must to gain FREEDOM & AGENCY. 
• Need strong nervous system to process these changes and Yoga helps build it